January 2012
63 posts
If it weren't for the 'my wife want's other...
in general, we get along together great. I know that I do bitch and vent about her. But really that stuff is just stuff right? Last night we had been texting back and forth while I was at work. I had mentioned having a bastard of a headache and she offered to bring me something. I told her I would just get some coffee on lunch. In the end she brought some starbucks, aspirin, and something to snack...
Shortly after getting to work my boss told me . ....
that I have to work saturday. Not a request, but a demand.The guy on days that would normally do it had an emergency, something happened to his mother. Have I told you just why I dislike my job? Part of it would be that the demanding boss. He can be nice, however what the hell is with telling me I have to work? I wonder just what he would have done had I told him that I absolutely cannot. Say we...
Make a note to self . . .
hard job search tomorrow and work on portfolio before work.
Very important.
I need to make changes in my life damn-it!
I need to be happy.
Two things . . .
We’ll do the negative first.
I will leave for work in about forty minutes, and I am already dreading it on so many levels. I hate working swing shift. I miss seeing my daughter (which I know is counter productive, since I just said earlier that I would happily move away for work). You would think I would try harder to find something else, but that depresses me also.
Okay, on to the...
Received my new phone in the mail yesterday . . .
this is the replacement for the replacement. They don’t want the battery shipped back with the phone, so I now have three batteries, four if you include the battery for my wives phone. And four house chargers.
Yeah I was moved . . .
I sent a message.
So what of it?
;-)
You know part of me wishes she would look at my...
I don’t want to bring anything up because of how it always turns out, but if she read this then she could see, without the constant interruptions, how I am feeling. Probably still doesn’t matter, I’d still end up the bad guy I’m sure.
Oh well, probably for the better I guess.
And on that note . . .
In reference to Michelle’s post about becoming happy. If anyone has or knows of a job opening in the creative field. I graduated from Washington State University with what is essentially a graphic/web design/video production degree. I am willing to relocate, my wife and I had talked about it in the past that if one of us got a position away from here, we would just deal with it and conduct a...
Yeah . . .
that’s about what I expected from you.
No wonder I am so unhappy.
And yes Michelle, I saw it and currently contemplating the ramifications. Unfortunately, not everything that is causing my unhappiness can be gotten rid of.
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Okay idiot . . .
keep your head down, mouth shut, just let this shit go. Remember you don’t care anymore. This is how you have to be in order to keep from losing it. Just keep telling yourself that. Remember what you have finally learned. Don’t want to start another fight that will inevitably be my fault anyway.
fml
I follow s Volkswagon blog . . .
and looking at some of the pictures of old, needing to be restored Beetles, hunked up in the back of some garage, parcels of junk piled where they can go, dirty, rusty, saddened by the shape they are in, makes me sad and nostalgic. I look at that, and remember my 61 in my grandparents garage twenty some years ago, white, flames, and hope. I have a vague, growing vaguer by the day it seems, memory...
You know that tv show The increasingly poor...
You could change the name to The increasingly poor decisions of Joseph Aldred and that would be my life.
Well not the story, that guy is an idiot, but just the title. I could have gone to school for something that was more in demand, but not necessarily what I want to do, however I made a poor decision there and chose what I wanted to do (kind of rigging the evidence of my choice) and look where...
Nobody should take this wrong . . .
I think she is fine the way she is. So don’t take this as though I am being a dick or anything.
But I wonder how long it will be until hollywood really gets it’s claws into Adele and she loses weight and becomes skinny.
REMEMBER, I am not being a dick or anything in saying this. I AM NOT SUGGESTING SHE LOSE WEIGHT. I think she is fine the way she is. It just seems as though that is...
She said the best reason she could think of why...
wait for it.
Hormones.
I don’t buy it. Might as well pack up your shop and fucking take a hike with that shit. She is really unhappy at work (aren’t we all?) and that is all the explanation she has?
Personally, I think it has something to do with that girl. I get the feeling there was no “love” connection there.
I swear to god. Forsaking all others. Doesn’t that...
It is a sad state when at 40 . . .
the only mid-life crisis I can afford is expensive booze.
I can’t even afford to go out and waste money on some needless purchase let alone a useless car that could only sit two people. And even if I could afford to purchase a Miata or some other roadster, I would hesitate for that very reason. The whole mid-life crisis thing. I have wanted one since they started making them, but when it...
The display on my phone died a few weeks ago . . .
I started writing about my phone and now having to replace it, when I realized that I did the same thing yesterday.
Fuck aging and memory issues.
Fuck it I say.
Indeed.
Truthful Tuesday
I am torn between editing and writing (creating)
When I am up early, I like to wear my hoodie (even though it is dirty and pretty nasty at the moment) so I can put the hood up even though all the lights are currently off. Something about having the hood up that creates a cocoon like spot for me to embrace creativity in.
Now, if I could just stop the sun from rising a little bit longer.
Or, if I...
Leave it to my wife to take every negative thing I...
just leave it.
Last night, just before we went to bed, she was in a “i don’t want to go to bed since it will mean time to get up and go to work soon” mode. I told her just to stay up all night and enjoy the time. Her response that it would still happen no matter what was agreed upon by me. I commented that just as when I get up early the sun will inevitably rise and I will...
Not ready for the sun . . .
and the day, and the light. If only I could abolish sleep from my schedule.
I am fighting the serious urge to post some angry...
about honesty but damn-it, I am trying to be a more positive person here. I think that the negativity all the time drives some people away. Or drove some people away before.
I’m trying not to do that right now.
Try not my patience infernal machine . . .
Sooo recently I had to get my phone replaced. The display due to undisclosed issues. And the phone that the insurance sent me worked pretty well, same model and everything, but the touch screen was a little screwed up. Every now and then I would touch one place and it would trigger on another location. I would push 8 and would get 2. I figure since it was an insurance claim, I did not figure they...
This came to me as I raced home . . . now time for...
I stood on the beach, icy water lapping at my toes, quickly numbing them, watching the sun call darkness to my back, I reached into my pocked, drawing my phone out and made one call. Of course I made a call, I called the only person that I could think to ever call at this moment. This moment where every other thing had already been taken care of. I called her. The one. My one. Dialing the number...
Just as a quick question to my friends . . .
of the myriad of social networking sites we all go to, is there anything that none of them have that you wish they did?
Or is there any feature that you really like to use that you wish others had?
I want to use my php/mysql skills (little right now, but growing) to create a social networking site. Not anything that is going to be David against Goliath, but just as a project I can work on to...
My mother ran off to Texas a few weeks ago . . .
and went and got hitched. I’ve never met the guy, but I guess she has known him for years, and he is a pretty great guy.
YAY MOM!
Sometimes I do stupid things . . .
and other times, I do even stupider things.
Go figure.
Yesterday before work, I was in the break room and the vice president of the company was having lunch along with two women he always has lunch with. Everyday they do the crossword puzzle. They were talking about relationships or something, and the vice said something about how men are stupid I laughed and agreed heartily.
So, last week as a sort of last minute sort of...
I was able to spin work around and get to attend a PHP/MySQL seminar series at WSU, today is the second day. So, not only do I get to attend this, but also I get to miss about three hours of work. So happy for today. Now if only I got to work and they said we didn’t have enough work for the night I I got to go home around six thirty. Maybe we could go out to happy hour for a little. None the...
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Now that's just silly . . .
Apparently tumblr thinks that “least.It” is a link. In a way I can understand since the IT part could be a country reference for Italy, much like JP is for Japan. But really? I just forgot a space in there somewhere.
I just went to send someone a message . . .
and surprise surprise I get a message that says “please don’t include links in questions” for obvious reasons, there is no link in the question. I even copied the text into a text file to strip anything that might possibly be there, and then copy/pasted it back into the ask to the same result. I wonder if this is them combating missing-e by manufacturing problems. So how about...
We got drunk last night . . .
and I was on the verge of asking her a few things about her and the other girl flashing each other. Just curosity things to get a better mental image.
I know I should just let it go, and I will in time, it is mostly that I just want to get that mental image. It is the artist in me needs to see it in my head, if I cannot see it in real life.
And yeah, it still bothers me that she has never really...
I don't have many followers . . .
nor do I follow many people. I haven’t really tried much this time around, not yet at least. I’m just trying not to make this too much of a time killer just yet.
So it is easy to apologize to you all at once for being such a constant downer and I appreciate you reading my venting. I know that tumblr isn’t just for ranting (or maybe it is just what each person makes of it) but...
A technical examination of SOPA and PROTECT IP →
wilwheaton:
As you have probably heard, there are two pieces of legislation currently pending that we, and others like us, believe seriously threaten the internet. I wanted to take some time to delve into the text of both of these bills, and outline their potential consequences as I am able to understand them. As you can imagine, this is a complex issue, and as a result this is going to be a...
It started snowing last night just before I left...
we got about four inches or so before I went to bed about two in the morning. I woke up around five to hear heavy melting. Got up around six and looked out the back door and the melt is so strong it sounds like a hard rain coming down the gutters. Can my life suck just a little more? I guess at least I got to see some snow.
I live in Vancouver Washington, just north of Portland Oregon a few...
Yesterday I sent my wife a text from work . . .
It said: Some days i want to blow my head off cus of this place.
She responded that she thinks we should go to therapy and that we need a little more happy in our lives.
I am not a “happy pill” person. I don’t like the thought that my happiness is dependent on a pill. And what does that do to a person in the long run. If I take one for ten years then stop, how am I going to...
Something I realized yesterday . . .
why is the handicapped toilet always the farthest from the door? Why are we fucking with the handicapped in such a manner?
Truthful Tuesday
Just learned something else that should go along with not mentioning to my wife when something is bothering me. Do not, DO NOT, under any circumstances mention any observations that involve her, and certainly don’t mention any dreams I might have in my sleep that she is in unless I want it to be psycho analyzed so that I think she is having an affair.
Just keep my mouth shut from now on I...
My wife, the girl, and I . . .
went to the Body Worlds exhibit at OMSI in Portland Oregon. To say it was strange would be a little of an underexaggeration. Just a little though. She was very nice and it was a lot of fun hanging out with her.
There are times that I wish I could not honestly...
that I have never done any illegal drugs in my life. The closest I have ever gotten was taking a pain pill for my back and then going against the precautions and having a alcohol drink and getting a really good buzz pretty quick. Sometimes I wish I had done something, some hallucinogenic drug. I always thought something like that would foster my creative side, had I never had children, or not as...
You know just a little consideration . . .
I shared my dessert with you, you cannot share with me? Yeah, fuck you. I know it isn’t really anything important in the grand scheme of things, but had it been the other way around you have gotten pissed at me. And were I to say something to you, I know it would somehow get turned around on me. But as a matter of fact, you are inconsiderate.
Fuck off.
Kill me.
It is already happening,...
Okay, so this little warning (announcement) about...
is starting to piss me off a bit. Something tells me that someone is a little ass hurt about this. Maybe, if they just purchased it from Cutler, they could then turn around and optimize it so it doesn’t cause the problems they say it is.
You can have it all ! My empire of dirt!